It’s my 3 year boobversary! ?
This day deserves to be celebrated and remembered as the day I made the hardest decision of my life. On this day 3 years ago, after being diagnosed with the BRCA gene and waiting 13 years under surveillance, I decided to begin my journey with a prophylactic bilateral mastectomy with reconstruction.
Today, I’m celebrating health, and admiring the measures I was willing to go. I don’t mark the death of my breasts, today I honor them. I will celebrate my body and its capacity for its strength.
Life isn’t that bad, I am healthy. When I look in the mirror, yes, I look different, but mentally and physically when I look in the mirror I say, “HOW DO YOU WANT TO BE REMEMBERED?” I am no different than the person I was before my surgery- I just now have scars and no nips. However, I always remind myself that, “scars tell better stories than tattoos.” My battle wounds don’t make me any less of a woman. I will always be a beautiful feminine woman. No scars and no nips can’t stop that!
I am thankful for my journey because through it I have found my strength, self-worth and I learned to truly appreciate my body
Accepting the beauty of my “imperfections” physically, mentally, and emotionally has helped me come extremely far in my journey. Through this journey, I have learned how to love myself. It was like I was given a second chance to accept who I was! Embrace MY individuality, as well all should. My advice is to love yourself without worrying about judgment. Over the past six months, I can say I have really started to become comfortable in my own skin.
To be truthful– from time to time, I find myself wishing that I had my boobs again. However, I know that removing my breasts benefits my health and outweighs the alternative.
I am now 36 years old and no matter what I face I am so grateful for the preventative action I took and truly feel blessed to be called a PREVIVOR. The past 3 years since my surgical journey began it has had its up and downs but due to the fact: “My journey has found my passion,” I now get to help other women through there journeys.
Two struggles I would love to share with this blog is being a single previvor and answering the questions as my kids get older.
Previvor-Single-Mom-Life, I am finding a little difficult. When is the right time to explain you have scars and no nips? Is there a right time? How do you start the conversation? Where to begin? As these thoughts have gone through my head over and over again, I just encourage myself to be open and honest, they will either accept you or reject you. You have to be prepared for both.
Explaining to my kids became much easier this year when Proactive Genes came out by Shannon. But as my daughter is getting older, she wants to know her risks? What can she do to be preventative? She knows the risks and asks when we or if she will get tested? I can help other previvors, survivors and thrivers, but this is a hard topic with your child. Think we need to work on a support system for them.
This journey has no regrets as I found my strength!!! Be strong at BRCAStrong.
“My BRCA2gene started the fight but I am going to finish it.”