Facebook: Jennifer Wusterhausen
Sitting here six weeks out from my prophylactic double mastectomy happy to be where I am. I was more than nervous with anticipation as November 29th 2018 approached. What if I regretted getting it done, what if it hurt too bad, what if I ended up looking horrible, what if I got an infection, what if, what if, what if… also the worries of not being able to mother my son, and do for myself and my family. My head was spinning and I was full of worry and fear.
The day of surgery came and I found myself waiting to go back to surgery. I sat with my hubby and prayed everything would be ok as he looked worried. I was getting more nervous so the nurse gave me a cocktail that made me not even remember saying bye to my husband. Next thing I knew after almost 7 hours in surgery I was waking up in recovery! It seemed so easy! It was over and I even asked the nurse all confused that it was really over already.
I ended up having to stay overnight just as a precaution and to stay on top of the pain with Iv meds. My husband went home to be with the kids and I rested by myself. Sure I felt sore and it was hard to move but I had done it, and I felt so much relief being on the “other side”. I ate my lunch and dinner and walked myself around and brushed my teeth and rested. The next morning I was sent home. I stayed on top of my pain meds and even though sometimes it wasn’t quite enough I made it through. My family helped me a lot around the house but I took care of myself. It wasn’t but a day or two I was going to run errands with my family and being out and about. I found a lovely lady that washed my hair for me and even styled it for me! I got 2 of my drains removed at 2 weeks then the other 2 at 3 weeks. Once those were out I felt amazing! By now I had 2 fills in my expanders. Getting the fills made me feel very sore and tired again but it was good to see some form of breasts again. By Christmas time I hosted and cooked a full thanksgiving style dinner and was definitely feeling much better than I expected. Yesterday was my 5th fill and I’m definitely starting to form breasts and looking normal again. My plastic surgeon suggests that I don’t take any hormones anymore so I guess I have to tough out the symptoms of menopause on my own.
All in all I am very happy with where I am today. The cancer risk being lowered so much I find myself not worrying as much. I’m thankful and happy to have the chance to do this to try to not have my kids go through what I did as a child. I was cleared to exercise and start to do what I feel that I can, so being able to pick up my son is amazing. I still have a long way to go with more fills, deciding on a size and implant type, another surgery and more down time but the end is in sight and even after all this my journey is not over. I will continue to spread awareness and be there to support any and everyone that may need an ear to listen!