By: Tracy Milgram-Posner
I’m staring at the railroad thinking about my life and all the things that I’ve been through. The track itself resembles a DNA gene, with the wood in between that resembles the strand which reminds me of my BRCA gene and where my fight started. It’s been a long road, life can hit you so fast and things that you can possibly imagine could end up happening to you. It was so unexpected and the cause and affects of it took a lot out of my life in general.
My world has been like a locomotive traveling, moving fast, building steam to get to my destination. But every train enters a dark tunnel where everything goes pitch black, a dark place where you can’t see anything no matter how much you adjust your eyes. A place so dark that you see there’s no way out. My train d-railed and was off for a while feeling alone even with the love and support from my loved ones wasn’t helping. The pain was unbearable.
I had many questions that were answers with replies, I did not understand. It took many months of soul searching, analyzing others railroads and pain to see if it helped me in anyway. I felt hopeless and lost in my own beliefs. My faith was gone, the pain was so bad that the tears ran on their own out of nowhere. I know I had to weather the storm after many months of dying inside with depression due to all this and asking WHY.
I finally snapped out of it and put my train back on the track, I knew the tunnel was very dark but from the darkness I saw light at the end of the tunnel. I decided to go full steam ahead all of the sudden the pain was going away, my questions had answers and I understood every reply and I reached my destination without looking back.
I’m not ALONE your train can d-rail at any time, but you can always get it back on track. “My BRCA2Gene start the fight and I am going to finish it.”